Portia, one of my good friends back in my EPCI days, is getting married on December! When I heard about the news, I wasn’t surprised at all. She asked me to be her bridesmaid. Being the good friend that I am, I obliged. I have attended quite a number of weddings in my lifetime – some of whom are my friends, some of my relatives, some of people I don’t personally know but we had to do anyway as part of our job as a wedding planner.
A lot of times, I cringe to the thought that I have to grace another whimsical event. No, hindi ako bitter nor naiinggit. I just hate the calling-all-single-ladies-the bride-is-now-throwing-the-bouquet bullshit. Ack! I think I’ve caught the bouquet too many times already and yet walang nangyayari (I repeat, hindi ako bitter!!!). ;-)
But why do I still drag my lazy ass to be present in these weddings?
Simple.
I want to celebrate love!
It’s really “magic” how two people end up together inspite of all the heartaches and challenges that the relationship has brought the couple. Yes, they may be in love, but it’s too strong a concept to put it into action, bear with, let alone fight for. I know one couple who’s been in a relationship for quite a while. Boy leaves girl to work some place else, they can’t bear the distance. Yet, their commitment to stay together and fight for the relationship until they were brought together again and make people bear witness to their great love. They are now happily married for 4 years and are blessed with a beautiful baby girl.
I also know one couple who didn’t like each other first. The girl thought the guy wasn’t attractive enough based on her standards. When the guy proved that he was worthy of her love, she had nothing else to do but to fall for him. In front of hundreds of people on their wedding day, she professed her undying love to her husband and that she was proud to be his wife. I tell you, not a dry eye in the room!
Portia & Pap’s story is a bit strange. They met during one of their CPA board reviews (I think) and the rest, as they say, is history. They were together for quite some time, until they had to part ways. Then one fine day, Portia and I met. I remember the days when we would lock ourselves in one of the private washrooms in the office and she would cry her eyes out to me. She felt that no amount of “getting over” and “moving on” will ever make her forget Paps. Well, had things not gone well between them, she was longing for “closure” to say the least. I remember vividly how much coaxing and how much I dared her to go to the guy’s place to speak to him. Off she went that same weekend!
Then she met Coy.
I thought she was finally, finally, finally over Paps (by the way, he’s bad news to me, hehehe)! Wrong!!! She ended what she had with Coy and came running back to the old one. She could never be happier!
Well, my point is, sa hinaba-haba man ng prusisyon, sa kasal pa rin mauuwi ang lahat.
At least she got what she wanted.
Keeping a grudge against someone who made my good friend countless times leaves a bad taste in the mouth. At least I can say now she’s totally happy and there’s no erasing of smile in her face anymore. I’m just so happy that she’s happy, fulfilled and satisfied. I just hope he doesn’t let her down anymore. Sure, they will experience innumerable arguments, disagreements and there will come a time when the next best thing to do is give up, but I know that once in their short life they have found one great love… and they’re sealing the deal on December 27, 2008.
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
box of chocolates
Aside from my nasty habit of snooping around other people’s blogs (thanks, Lean, for the idea) and my obsession with a listahan, I decided to come up with my own “box of chocolates.” I know, I know you’re wondering what bull I’m up to this time.
Di ba when we get a full box of Swiss or Belgian chocolates, we all get this giddy feeling, parang ang sarap sumigaw, ang sarap kiligin, ang sarap sumayaw, ang sarap tumalon kasi ang daming chocolate???
So to make up with my anxieties I’ve been having lately, I’ve come up with a listahan that makes me smile and that gives me this child-like excitement and silly grin:
- my collection of outrageous, kikay shoes – my Steve Madden polka dot round-toe pumps, my brown lace peep toe pumps with ribbon on the side, my yellow flats, my snake-skin open toe stiletto, my cerulean-colored stiletto. How I wish makabili ako ng Jimmy Choo, Christian Louboutin and Manolo Blahnik someday. *sigh*
- old pictures from travels – those were the days when we used to travel the lupang hinirang almost every week. Did I mention the travels were for free?
- my make-up – sorry na, maarte ako. I’m just so thankful for mineral make-up. Sige na, hindi na ako magku-kwento about make-up.
- my books – lately, mejo sila ang nagiging bestfriend ko. They take me to places unimaginable. When I’m lonely, they keep me company. When I’m bored, they amuse me. When I’m broke, sila ang dahilan. =p
- social networking sites and blogging. These are my avenues where I can express my thoughts, my creativity and it’s become therapeutic. I also get updates from old friends from these sites. I also develop my stalking skills thru these. In Friendster alone, I have 271 friends and counting. Not bad huh? And to my readers, sana dumami pa kayo! (as if! hahaha)
- my taste in music – it’s something intangible, but I’m glad I get to appreciate a wide range of music genre. I’m tagged as the resident DJ in my office. Hehe. I remember when my friends would make me guess the song title the minute the first note plays. Right now, my favorite songs are Kalapana’s The Real Thing and Moony’s Flying Away.
- my gift of words – I believe I can write well. It’s catharsis for me.
- my PDA phone – I am a proud owner of a Samsung Blackjack and although it’s a little bit pricey, it has done wonders. It keeps me always on time for meetings, it always reminds me of friend’s birthdays, it has a “countdown” to everything, I get to keep a number of mp3s, I can check my email anytime anywhere, I can take nice pictures with its built-in camera, etc. etc. There’s one thing that it CANNOT do though: the alarm to drag my sluggish butt off the bed every morning. Tsk tsk
- my black croc skin bag with zebra print accent – a gift from tickled pink. I luveeeet! I’m still hoping I could save enough money to buy a Speedy 30. The earlier, the better ;-)
- long hot baths with matching scented candles – I’m at my most creative when I’m in the shower. I get to pray, plan my day and self-talk when I’m washing my hair. Try it, ang saya!
- my black and silver slim havaianas – gives me the illusion of beautiful feet even if they’re the ugliest. Very dependable! Everyone should have a pair. It’s also our friendship slippers *wink*
- sleeping while it’s raining hard outside – it’s nice to fall asleep when you hear the pitter-patter of raindrops on the roof.
- my nail polish collection – it never fails to uplift my girly spirits.
- cooking and eating my comfort food – I love cream pasta and soup. I wanna learn how to prepare risotto and steak though.
Simple joys.
Life is short.
Have fun while you can.
Di ba when we get a full box of Swiss or Belgian chocolates, we all get this giddy feeling, parang ang sarap sumigaw, ang sarap kiligin, ang sarap sumayaw, ang sarap tumalon kasi ang daming chocolate???
So to make up with my anxieties I’ve been having lately, I’ve come up with a listahan that makes me smile and that gives me this child-like excitement and silly grin:
- my collection of outrageous, kikay shoes – my Steve Madden polka dot round-toe pumps, my brown lace peep toe pumps with ribbon on the side, my yellow flats, my snake-skin open toe stiletto, my cerulean-colored stiletto. How I wish makabili ako ng Jimmy Choo, Christian Louboutin and Manolo Blahnik someday. *sigh*
- old pictures from travels – those were the days when we used to travel the lupang hinirang almost every week. Did I mention the travels were for free?
- my make-up – sorry na, maarte ako. I’m just so thankful for mineral make-up. Sige na, hindi na ako magku-kwento about make-up.
- my books – lately, mejo sila ang nagiging bestfriend ko. They take me to places unimaginable. When I’m lonely, they keep me company. When I’m bored, they amuse me. When I’m broke, sila ang dahilan. =p
- social networking sites and blogging. These are my avenues where I can express my thoughts, my creativity and it’s become therapeutic. I also get updates from old friends from these sites. I also develop my stalking skills thru these. In Friendster alone, I have 271 friends and counting. Not bad huh? And to my readers, sana dumami pa kayo! (as if! hahaha)
- my taste in music – it’s something intangible, but I’m glad I get to appreciate a wide range of music genre. I’m tagged as the resident DJ in my office. Hehe. I remember when my friends would make me guess the song title the minute the first note plays. Right now, my favorite songs are Kalapana’s The Real Thing and Moony’s Flying Away.
- my gift of words – I believe I can write well. It’s catharsis for me.
- my PDA phone – I am a proud owner of a Samsung Blackjack and although it’s a little bit pricey, it has done wonders. It keeps me always on time for meetings, it always reminds me of friend’s birthdays, it has a “countdown” to everything, I get to keep a number of mp3s, I can check my email anytime anywhere, I can take nice pictures with its built-in camera, etc. etc. There’s one thing that it CANNOT do though: the alarm to drag my sluggish butt off the bed every morning. Tsk tsk
- my black croc skin bag with zebra print accent – a gift from tickled pink. I luveeeet! I’m still hoping I could save enough money to buy a Speedy 30. The earlier, the better ;-)
- long hot baths with matching scented candles – I’m at my most creative when I’m in the shower. I get to pray, plan my day and self-talk when I’m washing my hair. Try it, ang saya!
- my black and silver slim havaianas – gives me the illusion of beautiful feet even if they’re the ugliest. Very dependable! Everyone should have a pair. It’s also our friendship slippers *wink*
- sleeping while it’s raining hard outside – it’s nice to fall asleep when you hear the pitter-patter of raindrops on the roof.
- my nail polish collection – it never fails to uplift my girly spirits.
- cooking and eating my comfort food – I love cream pasta and soup. I wanna learn how to prepare risotto and steak though.
Simple joys.
Life is short.
Have fun while you can.
leche PLAN
Ang dami dami dami kong plano for 2008! Puro spillover ito ng mga plano ko nitong 2007. Nakakalungkot man, hindi ko nakuha lahat ng mga hinangad ko makuha sana para sa taong ito.
Although luckily, I got promoted this year, this is becoming a hindrance to my one bold move to job – hop. Syempre, nakakahiya naman if I just leave right after I get my promotion. Of course, it entails great responsibilities and even greater expectations. Although I have received a few invitations to join their companies, I still consider the time I have to spend with my company now that they have just granted me a promotion. Pero hanggang kelan ako tatanaw ng utang na loob? Siguro hanggang March 2008 na ang pinakamatagal ng ilalagi ko sa Plantersbank.
Next year, iniisip ko kung gusto ko ba talaga mag-abroad. Eh paano naman ako magiging successful, eh hindi naman ako naghahanap ng trabaho? Medyo timing na lang din yung pagkakasakit ni daddy kasi kahit paano I get to see his improvement. It was a very serendipitous move by The Man because had I flown out, my mom would have endured everything alone. Kawawa!
Next year ulit, gusto ko rin makabili ng isang big-ticket item na talagang maipagmamalaki kong ako ang bumili, na talagang maraming lunch out/dinner dates/coffee-coffeehan/shopping ang tiniis ko na talagang pinag-ipunan ko ang pambili nun. I have a number of things in mind: isang magarang laptop, isang sosyaling European-brand na bag, isang pares ng mamahaling alahas na pwedeng maging heirloom piece, mailibre ko man lang ng plane ticket at shopping ang mommy ko sa hong kong o di kaya pang downpayment ng kotse o bahay (yeah, dream big!)
Next year pa rin, gusto ko rin ng isang hefty bank account. I also thought of investing my savings into something worthwhile, pero sabi nila mas advisable pa rin to be liquid nowadays. Oo nga naman. Sige, papalaguin ko na lang ang bank account ko.
Mabuhay ang mga ambitious!
Although luckily, I got promoted this year, this is becoming a hindrance to my one bold move to job – hop. Syempre, nakakahiya naman if I just leave right after I get my promotion. Of course, it entails great responsibilities and even greater expectations. Although I have received a few invitations to join their companies, I still consider the time I have to spend with my company now that they have just granted me a promotion. Pero hanggang kelan ako tatanaw ng utang na loob? Siguro hanggang March 2008 na ang pinakamatagal ng ilalagi ko sa Plantersbank.
Next year, iniisip ko kung gusto ko ba talaga mag-abroad. Eh paano naman ako magiging successful, eh hindi naman ako naghahanap ng trabaho? Medyo timing na lang din yung pagkakasakit ni daddy kasi kahit paano I get to see his improvement. It was a very serendipitous move by The Man because had I flown out, my mom would have endured everything alone. Kawawa!
Next year ulit, gusto ko rin makabili ng isang big-ticket item na talagang maipagmamalaki kong ako ang bumili, na talagang maraming lunch out/dinner dates/coffee-coffeehan/shopping ang tiniis ko na talagang pinag-ipunan ko ang pambili nun. I have a number of things in mind: isang magarang laptop, isang sosyaling European-brand na bag, isang pares ng mamahaling alahas na pwedeng maging heirloom piece, mailibre ko man lang ng plane ticket at shopping ang mommy ko sa hong kong o di kaya pang downpayment ng kotse o bahay (yeah, dream big!)
Next year pa rin, gusto ko rin ng isang hefty bank account. I also thought of investing my savings into something worthwhile, pero sabi nila mas advisable pa rin to be liquid nowadays. Oo nga naman. Sige, papalaguin ko na lang ang bank account ko.
Mabuhay ang mga ambitious!
Friday, August 15, 2008
my priorities
last night's household was a breath of fresh air. i learned something new (again) about myself and my sisters and borthers.
earl & camille challenged us to come up with a list of how we prioritize 5 major points in our lives: prayer time, service, family, career, relationships. They told us to rank them they we prioritize them now and how we want them to be prioritized.
syempre, the ever pasaway, i came up with my own gimik. i ranked them according to how i value things before SFC, and now that i am one of them.
Before:
1. relationships - i was happy with what was going on in my life. i thought i had it all, i could just die.
2. career - money was a big factor then. i was materialistic. i was, for a time, married to the mall.
3. family - they're just there. everyone's healthy, everyone's at peace, everyone happy. i know that no matter what i do, i know my parents are just there. they'd love me no matter what.
4. prayer - ack! i had everything a girl could ever ask for. i don't need it.
5. service - i used to live for myself.
But now (and I'm proud of it):
1. prayer time - for me, this is the most "convenient" thing to do - because you can do this anytime, anywhere. lately, the first thing that i do when i open my eyes in the morning is pray. simply to thank and ask for guidance. i learned somewhere that prayer is not a spare tire we pull out everytime we feel our life has gone flat. rather,we should use it as a steering wheel to navigate us to our path where god wants us to be.
2. family - i come from a very small family, although i must admit we dont have a very open relationship, but we find ways to communicate. i'm still working on this part. i learned to value my parents more now, most especially when my dad got sick.
3. relationships [romantic (ulk!) or otherwise] - the people who keep me grounded; it's god's way of telling me that he loves me thru the friends he gave me.
4. career - it puts food on the table alright, but i believe i wasnt born to work. i work to live. i think ive already proven something,although not that grand (yet),pero im happy where i am now.
5. service - this is one thing i need to exert an effort in. although i intend to serve (charity), the thought is there,but i need to execute. like on my bday,instead of receiving gifts,i wanna be the one to pay it forward now. i believe ive been very blessed,so why not share the blessing?
so there, i challenge you to come up with your priorities too.
earl & camille challenged us to come up with a list of how we prioritize 5 major points in our lives: prayer time, service, family, career, relationships. They told us to rank them they we prioritize them now and how we want them to be prioritized.
syempre, the ever pasaway, i came up with my own gimik. i ranked them according to how i value things before SFC, and now that i am one of them.
Before:
1. relationships - i was happy with what was going on in my life. i thought i had it all, i could just die.
2. career - money was a big factor then. i was materialistic. i was, for a time, married to the mall.
3. family - they're just there. everyone's healthy, everyone's at peace, everyone happy. i know that no matter what i do, i know my parents are just there. they'd love me no matter what.
4. prayer - ack! i had everything a girl could ever ask for. i don't need it.
5. service - i used to live for myself.
But now (and I'm proud of it):
1. prayer time - for me, this is the most "convenient" thing to do - because you can do this anytime, anywhere. lately, the first thing that i do when i open my eyes in the morning is pray. simply to thank and ask for guidance. i learned somewhere that prayer is not a spare tire we pull out everytime we feel our life has gone flat. rather,we should use it as a steering wheel to navigate us to our path where god wants us to be.
2. family - i come from a very small family, although i must admit we dont have a very open relationship, but we find ways to communicate. i'm still working on this part. i learned to value my parents more now, most especially when my dad got sick.
3. relationships [romantic (ulk!) or otherwise] - the people who keep me grounded; it's god's way of telling me that he loves me thru the friends he gave me.
4. career - it puts food on the table alright, but i believe i wasnt born to work. i work to live. i think ive already proven something,although not that grand (yet),pero im happy where i am now.
5. service - this is one thing i need to exert an effort in. although i intend to serve (charity), the thought is there,but i need to execute. like on my bday,instead of receiving gifts,i wanna be the one to pay it forward now. i believe ive been very blessed,so why not share the blessing?
so there, i challenge you to come up with your priorities too.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
birthday wishlist
damn! i'm turning 28 in (checking pda)... 33 days!
is it true that as you get more comfortable in your own skin, let alone build a stronger sense of self (read: self-esteem), you become more fearless in facing your real age (i mean biological, not mental age). i don't believe in numbers anyway.
even if you insist that i'm officially old (yeah, yeah, we'll all get "there." una-unahan lang yan!), i believe i'm still entitled to my whims. i can tell you i'd want world peace as the perfect birthday present albeit its pageant-like-answer-that-will-surely-land-you-the-title theme, why not, libre ang mangarap! although it gives me chills to the bones to admit that i've been working this long, yet i haven't saved much to cater to my ever lust-inducing impulses (i'm talking material things, you moron!), i guess coming up with a wishlist won't hurt at all. if there are people who's like to play santa this early, go ahead and pacify me. if you don't intend to play mother theresa, no worries.
anyway, here are the things i'd like to have:
1. a digicam (dslr preferred) - to capture every great (or the not-so-great) moments with my friends, family or myself. sometimes i love taking pictures of non-living things. minsan gusto ko naman mag-trip kunan ng litrato ang mga taong nagmo-"moment" or nag-e-emote.
2. nice pairs of shoes (notice it's in plural form) - i'm talking killer shoes that will not only make my ugly feet & legs look beautiful & slim, but will also give me blisters. my life mantra is "beauty over comfort." i don't care if i commute every single day, but as long as i get praises for my shoes, then i'm all good!
3. shopping spree - it's been a long time since i went shopping. i don't intend to blow my month's paycheck on a single (sosyal) store. lately, i'm into this anti-mass-produced labels. so ok lang if i get to buy a few pieces, as long as it looks good on me and i don't get to bump into someone wearing the same ensemble.
4. a nice bag - hmm... the smell of luxurious leather, colored, well-made, arm candy (ok, i don't wanna push my luck and wish for an LV Damier).
5. plane ticket to an out-of-the-country trip - need i say more? (a trip to the beach will do.)
6. a laptop and a wireless internet connection - so i can blog, blog, blog away. anytime. anywhere. (and read more blogs)
7. a powerbooks gift certificate - so i can buy all the books i want. i love reading. i'm reading lauren weisberger's "chasing harry winston" lately. i'm starting to like chick lits. although i'd like to read garcia marquez' one hundred years of solitude one day, i'm taking it one step at a time.
happy birthday to me in 33 days!
is it true that as you get more comfortable in your own skin, let alone build a stronger sense of self (read: self-esteem), you become more fearless in facing your real age (i mean biological, not mental age). i don't believe in numbers anyway.
even if you insist that i'm officially old (yeah, yeah, we'll all get "there." una-unahan lang yan!), i believe i'm still entitled to my whims. i can tell you i'd want world peace as the perfect birthday present albeit its pageant-like-answer-that-will-surely-land-you-the-title theme, why not, libre ang mangarap! although it gives me chills to the bones to admit that i've been working this long, yet i haven't saved much to cater to my ever lust-inducing impulses (i'm talking material things, you moron!), i guess coming up with a wishlist won't hurt at all. if there are people who's like to play santa this early, go ahead and pacify me. if you don't intend to play mother theresa, no worries.
anyway, here are the things i'd like to have:
1. a digicam (dslr preferred) - to capture every great (or the not-so-great) moments with my friends, family or myself. sometimes i love taking pictures of non-living things. minsan gusto ko naman mag-trip kunan ng litrato ang mga taong nagmo-"moment" or nag-e-emote.
2. nice pairs of shoes (notice it's in plural form) - i'm talking killer shoes that will not only make my ugly feet & legs look beautiful & slim, but will also give me blisters. my life mantra is "beauty over comfort." i don't care if i commute every single day, but as long as i get praises for my shoes, then i'm all good!
3. shopping spree - it's been a long time since i went shopping. i don't intend to blow my month's paycheck on a single (sosyal) store. lately, i'm into this anti-mass-produced labels. so ok lang if i get to buy a few pieces, as long as it looks good on me and i don't get to bump into someone wearing the same ensemble.
4. a nice bag - hmm... the smell of luxurious leather, colored, well-made, arm candy (ok, i don't wanna push my luck and wish for an LV Damier).
5. plane ticket to an out-of-the-country trip - need i say more? (a trip to the beach will do.)
6. a laptop and a wireless internet connection - so i can blog, blog, blog away. anytime. anywhere. (and read more blogs)
7. a powerbooks gift certificate - so i can buy all the books i want. i love reading. i'm reading lauren weisberger's "chasing harry winston" lately. i'm starting to like chick lits. although i'd like to read garcia marquez' one hundred years of solitude one day, i'm taking it one step at a time.
happy birthday to me in 33 days!
Thursday, August 7, 2008
ode to tickled pink
It’s one of my good friends’ birthday today. She goes by a lot of moniker: Cha, Chachi, Chachikibuta, and, er, Czarmel. But to me she’ll always be friendship. Yes, we’ve learned to call each other “friendship” over the years, no matter how bakya it may sound. For me, she really epitomizes what friendship is all about – giving, understanding, sacrificing, loving beyond borders.
Let me tell you about how our friendship started.
Well, as early as 5th grade (gee, that was many moons ago!), we were already classmates. We belong in the same row as we were alphabetically arranged by surname – she, Cruz, and me, del Rosario. For some strange reason, perhaps we being childish and all, we started “fighting.” I really can’t quite recall what started it, but what we’re sure of is that pareho kaming maldita at such a young age!
And then we met again in sophomore year. This time, we’ve formed allies with the rest of the girls whom we know we’ll be friends with for a long time. There was me, Cha, Mikhai, Janice, Aissa, Oss, Tatinne, Cathy (oh, no, I think I missed someone). We would always hang out to our house in Paco to swap stories, pig out on junk food and to basically bum around. We all shared stories about our crushes (si Jay!!!) and we would mock some of our classmates and teachers (mean girls forevah!).
Sad to say, some went their separate ways, yet some remained loyal to the group.
When we reached college, we seldom, if at all, saw each other.
And then we graduated.
We started fulfilling our fantasies to climb up the corporate ladder (until now, it still is a fantasy as we aren’t so high and mighty…yet. We want world domination!).
One day, someone invited everyone for some catching up.
It didn’t end there.
We were seeing more and more of each other since then.
I found myself praying and saying thanks to The Man for uniting us again. The challenges we had to face this time are far cry from what we used to battle way back.
Now, we have to wage war against career, family, money, relationships and a whole lot more.
When I was struggling with issues of the heart (you know what, looking back, I find everything so funny. I cringe all the time!), my girls were always there. We were always together every single day. We would drown ourselves with coffee, food, shopping and we would always laugh our hearts out.
Of course, within a group, there will always be little cliques.
In ours, Cha is my clique.
She was sooooo patient in listening to all my rants about life. Ang nakakatawa, we experience almost the same things at the exact same time. That’s why I’m overly thankful for having her in my life. She never passes judgment on me, she even spoils me rotten (in a good way ha?). She says all the right things when I need to hear them. I believe that its God’s way of saying that He is just beside me all the time Chachi as just an instrument. What do you know, she is even my prayer partner. We never fail to say our St. Jude novenas every Thursday.
Since today is a Thursday, and it is your birthday, I pray that you be given impeccable health, bless you with a happy love life really soon, a kick-ass career and may all your prayers be answered. You know you are in my prayers.
Thank you, friendship, for everything. Happy birthday!
I love you ng bonggang bongga!!! ;-)
Monday, August 4, 2008
get a life
you insecure bitch, will you please stop viewing me on friendster.
you got what you wanted, didn't you? aren't you at all happy?
you're so insecure. you have zero self-esteem.
bitch! bitch! bitch!
you got what you wanted, didn't you? aren't you at all happy?
you're so insecure. you have zero self-esteem.
bitch! bitch! bitch!
chaos
whaaaa!!!!
grabe na ang nangyayari sa office!
puro gossip, puro intriga.
my gosh, can't people from that other bank please shut up. and that girl with puny brain???
i wanna be left alone.
i wanna live in peace.
i'm happy. can't we all be?
grabe na ang nangyayari sa office!
puro gossip, puro intriga.
my gosh, can't people from that other bank please shut up. and that girl with puny brain???
i wanna be left alone.
i wanna live in peace.
i'm happy. can't we all be?
Thursday, July 31, 2008
hiatus
i've been in hibernation for 1 month, i think.
well, i've been very busy leading a very happy and peaceful life.
i've never felt this way before.
it's overwhelming. there are no words to describe what i feel inside.
i'm happy.
deliriously happy.
well, i've been very busy leading a very happy and peaceful life.
i've never felt this way before.
it's overwhelming. there are no words to describe what i feel inside.
i'm happy.
deliriously happy.
Monday, July 7, 2008
money DOES NOT make the world go round
I never fail to read the papers on Sundays. For one, I have all the time to do so, unlike when I do read on a weekday, when I end up rushing for work. I still am late every time nevertheless.
Like I blogged before, I love Bum Tenorio, Lucy Torres (sometimes, I get jealous of her because she writes about food she tries most of the time, yet she stays slim in spite of all the sweets and fatty food she shoves down her throat) and Jim Paredes’ columns.
This Sunday, Jim Paredes talked about things money can’t buy. Since he teaches creative writing, he asked his class to list down things that make them happy yet come (for) free. My initial reaction: wala nang free ngayon! Or kaya, free man sya, meaning no monitary value, yet emotions are involved. Either way, there’s a price to pay for it.
In this time of soaring oil prices & inflation, I was surprised, as I read on, that the students were able to list down 10. And then, Jim even challenged them to list down 200 more! Wow, that was something! So meaning, marami talaga! He even added that when we are stripped of worldly wealth, we really get to come down and get to appreciate the basics.
Sige, sige, Mr. Paredes, I’m up for the challenge. I’ll think of something and come up with a list of my own, in no particular order:
- the sun, the moon and the stars that remind us that there are greater things in this universe
- the air we breathe
- the sound and music we hear
- gravity, that keeps us “grounded” (hehe, I was trying to be funny)
- our dreams that we strive to put into reality
- our parents, our friends, our extended families
- happiness in spite of our discontentment
- peace of mind that give us sound sleep every night
- our faith in God, that He has good plans for us
- our religion that helps us shape our value system
- our health that helps us carry out our tasks everyday
- prayer, our venue to be with the Almighty
- healing, and the hope of rising from the ashes
- love
- a kiss
- the power of holding hands with a friend or a partner
- ambition, our aspirations that we continually work hard for
- forgiveness
- our “humanness”, flaws and all
- our strength and courage to go on in spite of challenges
- relationships with people that make us realize that God is with us
- blessings and grace we receive from God
- patience in waiting for something without any timeline
- humility in accepting our weaknesses or faults
- compassion for the less fortunate
- our talents that set us apart from others
- our voice that helps us communicate and sing in the shower and speak the sweetest and sincerest prayers
- our sense of smell that makes us appreciate the flowers in the garden, our fresh bottle of perfume and even the smell of coffee in the morning
- our ears that make us hear the gushing wind or the angry waves
So far, here are my “free” happiness.
Sige nga, what’s yours?
Like I blogged before, I love Bum Tenorio, Lucy Torres (sometimes, I get jealous of her because she writes about food she tries most of the time, yet she stays slim in spite of all the sweets and fatty food she shoves down her throat) and Jim Paredes’ columns.
This Sunday, Jim Paredes talked about things money can’t buy. Since he teaches creative writing, he asked his class to list down things that make them happy yet come (for) free. My initial reaction: wala nang free ngayon! Or kaya, free man sya, meaning no monitary value, yet emotions are involved. Either way, there’s a price to pay for it.
In this time of soaring oil prices & inflation, I was surprised, as I read on, that the students were able to list down 10. And then, Jim even challenged them to list down 200 more! Wow, that was something! So meaning, marami talaga! He even added that when we are stripped of worldly wealth, we really get to come down and get to appreciate the basics.
Sige, sige, Mr. Paredes, I’m up for the challenge. I’ll think of something and come up with a list of my own, in no particular order:
- the sun, the moon and the stars that remind us that there are greater things in this universe
- the air we breathe
- the sound and music we hear
- gravity, that keeps us “grounded” (hehe, I was trying to be funny)
- our dreams that we strive to put into reality
- our parents, our friends, our extended families
- happiness in spite of our discontentment
- peace of mind that give us sound sleep every night
- our faith in God, that He has good plans for us
- our religion that helps us shape our value system
- our health that helps us carry out our tasks everyday
- prayer, our venue to be with the Almighty
- healing, and the hope of rising from the ashes
- love
- a kiss
- the power of holding hands with a friend or a partner
- ambition, our aspirations that we continually work hard for
- forgiveness
- our “humanness”, flaws and all
- our strength and courage to go on in spite of challenges
- relationships with people that make us realize that God is with us
- blessings and grace we receive from God
- patience in waiting for something without any timeline
- humility in accepting our weaknesses or faults
- compassion for the less fortunate
- our talents that set us apart from others
- our voice that helps us communicate and sing in the shower and speak the sweetest and sincerest prayers
- our sense of smell that makes us appreciate the flowers in the garden, our fresh bottle of perfume and even the smell of coffee in the morning
- our ears that make us hear the gushing wind or the angry waves
So far, here are my “free” happiness.
Sige nga, what’s yours?
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
katawa-tawa
sometimes bitterness, but we always have to have faith and believe that all these pain will benefit us one day. It is for our good. We may not know the purpose NOW, but we will someday.
Life is about waiting.
Our patience is being tested.
Patience, after all, is a virtue.
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It’s strange how people just disappear from our lives. It’s even stranger how they quickly appear again in our once peaceful life.
I’m being tested again.
What for?
Not for me to know NOW.
Maybe tomorrow.
Maybe in 10 years.
All I know now is that this has a purpose.
It will make me wiser. This will teach me valuable lessons.
I’m just so glad Cha was with me when I experienced all these.
We really are soul sisters.
Drama queen forever!
Life is about waiting.
Our patience is being tested.
Patience, after all, is a virtue.
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It’s strange how people just disappear from our lives. It’s even stranger how they quickly appear again in our once peaceful life.
I’m being tested again.
What for?
Not for me to know NOW.
Maybe tomorrow.
Maybe in 10 years.
All I know now is that this has a purpose.
It will make me wiser. This will teach me valuable lessons.
I’m just so glad Cha was with me when I experienced all these.
We really are soul sisters.
Drama queen forever!
Monday, June 23, 2008
human
i am weak.
the flesh is weak.
i tripped.
not good.
i'm sorry.
but this is an answered prayer.
i don't care anymore.
i know i'm in good hands.
thank you,god. you really love me.
the flesh is weak.
i tripped.
not good.
i'm sorry.
but this is an answered prayer.
i don't care anymore.
i know i'm in good hands.
thank you,god. you really love me.
the 20th hour
june 20 turned out to be a very extraordinarily special day for me. for one, i got to know one of my sfc facilitators better. we had a one-on-one before our so-called "baptism" later that night. we discussed my concerns and special intentions i wanted to pray for during the baptism. and of course a little chikahan on the side.
after the baptism, the speaker asked for vokunteers who will share their experiences. one sharing that struck, i guess not only me but everyone, was this sister who admitted she has cancer and already in stage 3. her faith was remarkable as she just lifted everything to god. she's lucky she found her support group in sfc. in that light,we vowed to pray for her every 20th hour. the support of the entire sfc community is just amazing that everyone was reminding each one to pray for her. our team leader even made a special prayer for this intension. i also promised myself to pray for her, and my dad as well.
so after the sharing came the worship. the songs sung loudly and proudly,it gave me goosebumps. okay, okay, it made me cry. i've never heard a group sang this lively. grabe ang galing!
so the entire session ended at 1am. since one of our groupmates will be celebrating his birthday on june 22, he invited us to have late dinner after that. it didn't end there though, we looked for a coffe shop that's open for 24 hours. luckily, we found one in valero. we sipped coffee til 5:00 am. it was fun on our way home coz joe drove us girls home. mind you, there are those who live in the south and far up north in rizal. he didn't mind if he hadn't had sleep,he just couldn't bear the thought that we'd be going home alone. aww,he's such an angel!
so there. that made my june 20th. the 20th hour. and my new-found friendships =)
god is good.
after the baptism, the speaker asked for vokunteers who will share their experiences. one sharing that struck, i guess not only me but everyone, was this sister who admitted she has cancer and already in stage 3. her faith was remarkable as she just lifted everything to god. she's lucky she found her support group in sfc. in that light,we vowed to pray for her every 20th hour. the support of the entire sfc community is just amazing that everyone was reminding each one to pray for her. our team leader even made a special prayer for this intension. i also promised myself to pray for her, and my dad as well.
so after the sharing came the worship. the songs sung loudly and proudly,it gave me goosebumps. okay, okay, it made me cry. i've never heard a group sang this lively. grabe ang galing!
so the entire session ended at 1am. since one of our groupmates will be celebrating his birthday on june 22, he invited us to have late dinner after that. it didn't end there though, we looked for a coffe shop that's open for 24 hours. luckily, we found one in valero. we sipped coffee til 5:00 am. it was fun on our way home coz joe drove us girls home. mind you, there are those who live in the south and far up north in rizal. he didn't mind if he hadn't had sleep,he just couldn't bear the thought that we'd be going home alone. aww,he's such an angel!
so there. that made my june 20th. the 20th hour. and my new-found friendships =)
god is good.
Friday, May 23, 2008
amazing
amazing, 22-May-08
god really works in myserious ways. hands down,magaling talaga sya. he brings people with like values, wavelength and sentiments together. i think that's his way of making people know that he is indeed everywhere. it's his way of saying he knows what we feel or think and that he's sending us someone to share our thoughts with.
super galing.
god worked for me today.
he sent me camille,one of my sfc facilitators.
during our conversation,we found out that we've gone through the same difficult situation at almost the same time. good part is,we've now risen above it and it made us what we are now -- happy and peaceful people.
we have the same insatiable desire to serve god by doing volunteer work. she said she's on "sabbatical," but she'd love to actively serve again. i do believe, as i have experienced, that there will come a time when you feel so burned out and wanna hybernate for a few weeks or months even years, just to recharge. once your batteries are up again,no one can stop you from serving god with all your heart, energy and all your soul.
aaahhhh! grabe!!! this day overwhelmed me talaga!! ang daming nangyari na good things. almost all mundane, pero there's only one bottom line to all this: that i should always be happy because god loves me and that he is the only answer to everything i've been looking for.
so plus points pa that i heard fr. jun's sermon...
and that i made peace with paolo...
and i saw my all star crush..
ang saya, i can die now! ;-)
god really works in myserious ways. hands down,magaling talaga sya. he brings people with like values, wavelength and sentiments together. i think that's his way of making people know that he is indeed everywhere. it's his way of saying he knows what we feel or think and that he's sending us someone to share our thoughts with.
super galing.
god worked for me today.
he sent me camille,one of my sfc facilitators.
during our conversation,we found out that we've gone through the same difficult situation at almost the same time. good part is,we've now risen above it and it made us what we are now -- happy and peaceful people.
we have the same insatiable desire to serve god by doing volunteer work. she said she's on "sabbatical," but she'd love to actively serve again. i do believe, as i have experienced, that there will come a time when you feel so burned out and wanna hybernate for a few weeks or months even years, just to recharge. once your batteries are up again,no one can stop you from serving god with all your heart, energy and all your soul.
aaahhhh! grabe!!! this day overwhelmed me talaga!! ang daming nangyari na good things. almost all mundane, pero there's only one bottom line to all this: that i should always be happy because god loves me and that he is the only answer to everything i've been looking for.
so plus points pa that i heard fr. jun's sermon...
and that i made peace with paolo...
and i saw my all star crush..
ang saya, i can die now! ;-)
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
daddy's little girl
although i don't admit it, i am still my daddy's baby girl. at least i think i still am. i used to be. my daddy & i had a "falling out," for some strange reason, some time ago. so i went though my teenage years without us being "close." plus the fact that he is a reserved man who almost never shared his thoughts and feelings with me.
when he fell sick of what his doctor called "heart failure," i kind of missed my dad. i started looking for those mundane things he has grown accustomed to doing. being an obssessive-compulsive person that he is, lahat ng bagay sa bahay namin kinakalikot nya. but when he started getting weak because of his heart condition, he almost kinda stopped doing these things.
after he has been healed from his ailment (although his doc admitted that even the fiercest meds can't bring back his heart's strength), i was surprised that our house is more organized now. that's when i know he's doing a-okay now.
i really missed my dad.
i love him and appreciate him day by day.
i just pray that god dives him more years.
when he fell sick of what his doctor called "heart failure," i kind of missed my dad. i started looking for those mundane things he has grown accustomed to doing. being an obssessive-compulsive person that he is, lahat ng bagay sa bahay namin kinakalikot nya. but when he started getting weak because of his heart condition, he almost kinda stopped doing these things.
after he has been healed from his ailment (although his doc admitted that even the fiercest meds can't bring back his heart's strength), i was surprised that our house is more organized now. that's when i know he's doing a-okay now.
i really missed my dad.
i love him and appreciate him day by day.
i just pray that god dives him more years.
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
all we need is love
all we need is love, blog 13-May-08
last friday's clp was about how is it like to lead a christian life. it talked about the different attitude and disciplines a christian, one who truly loves god, should imbibe and practice. for some strange reason, my mind was wandering off somewhere. i don't exactly remember where it wandered off,but my mind wasn't paying 100% attention to the speaker for sure.
however,the speaker threw us a question that really struck me. if god really loves us and if we really are faithful to our christian duties,then why are there rich and poor people? why are there people who suffer?
the answer is simple..
love.
yes, you read it right.
love.
this gives us a reason to be compassionate and be more giving and loving to mankind.
whenever we see beggars, especially children or the elderlies who ask for alms in the streets, don't we feel a tinge of awa inside of us?
when we see or hear of stories of violence or racism on television, don't our hearts bleed for the oppressed?
pain and suffering happens to "humble" other people and make them realize that inspite of their life's misfortunes, they can still consider themselves lucky because they're not in the same situation.
thus it is called counting your blessings.
that's why i was so proud of our country that although we are in a 3rd world country ourselves, we still took time to send an aid to cyclone-stricken myanmar to extend all the support we can. i mean,we don't have much, in fact, we have our own trials to face as a nation. but the truly essense of giving is in sharing what's excess,but sharing what we already have and never minding we will somehow lose a part of it.
i believe filipinos are generous, compassionate and empathic people. i just hope we can practice these virtues and set our differences aside for once.
love is the answer.
last friday's clp was about how is it like to lead a christian life. it talked about the different attitude and disciplines a christian, one who truly loves god, should imbibe and practice. for some strange reason, my mind was wandering off somewhere. i don't exactly remember where it wandered off,but my mind wasn't paying 100% attention to the speaker for sure.
however,the speaker threw us a question that really struck me. if god really loves us and if we really are faithful to our christian duties,then why are there rich and poor people? why are there people who suffer?
the answer is simple..
love.
yes, you read it right.
love.
this gives us a reason to be compassionate and be more giving and loving to mankind.
whenever we see beggars, especially children or the elderlies who ask for alms in the streets, don't we feel a tinge of awa inside of us?
when we see or hear of stories of violence or racism on television, don't our hearts bleed for the oppressed?
pain and suffering happens to "humble" other people and make them realize that inspite of their life's misfortunes, they can still consider themselves lucky because they're not in the same situation.
thus it is called counting your blessings.
that's why i was so proud of our country that although we are in a 3rd world country ourselves, we still took time to send an aid to cyclone-stricken myanmar to extend all the support we can. i mean,we don't have much, in fact, we have our own trials to face as a nation. but the truly essense of giving is in sharing what's excess,but sharing what we already have and never minding we will somehow lose a part of it.
i believe filipinos are generous, compassionate and empathic people. i just hope we can practice these virtues and set our differences aside for once.
love is the answer.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
health is wealth
thank god dad is finally out of the hospital. although he didnt get his clean bill of health so to speak,i'm still happy he felt better and his health improved even just a bit. boy,he lost a looooot of weight. he practically is skin & bones. the doc diagnosed him to have heart failure. for one,this could be due to his excessive alcohol intake way back. his heart has weakened and is not able to pump blood and other liquid in his sytem,thus resulting to water retention in his legs (knees below). we always encourage him though to be active because he has led a very sedentary lifestyle since he retired. the doc was honest enough to tell us that he will never be able to recover his cardiac strength. oh well,we thought that it was too late anyway,so mom & i will just extend all the help we can to give dad a comfortable life.
after what happened,i'm so proud of myself for having subjected myself into our company's annual physical exams a couple of weeks back. i have to agree with the cliché that prevention is way better than cure. it's always wise to detect any ailment in its early stage than having to fight it while you already acquired the disease.
i'm glad mom is still healthy inspite of her age because she regularly exercises and does lead a very active lifestyle. i just pray to god that he blesses my mom with more years so we can still spend more time together. i still want her to see me walk down the aisle and eventually my kids *sigh*
lesson learned.
after what happened,i'm so proud of myself for having subjected myself into our company's annual physical exams a couple of weeks back. i have to agree with the cliché that prevention is way better than cure. it's always wise to detect any ailment in its early stage than having to fight it while you already acquired the disease.
i'm glad mom is still healthy inspite of her age because she regularly exercises and does lead a very active lifestyle. i just pray to god that he blesses my mom with more years so we can still spend more time together. i still want her to see me walk down the aisle and eventually my kids *sigh*
lesson learned.
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
the movie fan in me
once i arrived from work last night, i popped "little children" in my player. i've read a number of threads about this movie -- how the actors gave a superb performance. it was truly magical! their acting really gave the emotions away.
what struck me was the part where sarah (kate winslet's role) was discussing the book "madame bovary" with her book club, she said of the character's adultery "no, it's not the cheating. It's the hunger, the hunger or an alternative and the refusal to accept a life of unhappiness." i'm not exactly sure if this was her way of rationalizing her infidelities, but she sure made an impression on this. good point!
overall, the movie was fantastic! dark and disturbing, yet can poke every single issue a community faces -- adulterous relations between neighbors, dysfunctional married relationships, temptations, lousy personalities and a "cancer" in our society. it showed how a "perfect" and peaceful family can be ruined by sheer temptation.
i recommend this to everyone who can spare 2 and a half hours of entertainment. a lot of topics were covered that can make you go hmmmm...
what struck me was the part where sarah (kate winslet's role) was discussing the book "madame bovary" with her book club, she said of the character's adultery "no, it's not the cheating. It's the hunger, the hunger or an alternative and the refusal to accept a life of unhappiness." i'm not exactly sure if this was her way of rationalizing her infidelities, but she sure made an impression on this. good point!
overall, the movie was fantastic! dark and disturbing, yet can poke every single issue a community faces -- adulterous relations between neighbors, dysfunctional married relationships, temptations, lousy personalities and a "cancer" in our society. it showed how a "perfect" and peaceful family can be ruined by sheer temptation.
i recommend this to everyone who can spare 2 and a half hours of entertainment. a lot of topics were covered that can make you go hmmmm...
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
this IS my calling
i used to be a member of Youth For Christ of the CFC Family Ministries. When I started college,I stopped attending meetings for some strange reason. is it because of my school load? or my cousins just stopped attending because their being a "youth" has expired? or i didn't know much about the company i was with,which made me feel a bit old? maybe a little both of each.
for quite some time now,i've been having this insatiable desire to strengthen my faith further. one way of doing this, i believe, is by surrounding myself with people who would want the same thing. nothing beats doing an activity with the same goal in mind,and doing it with new people wo can later on be your friends.
this time, i can be mature and independent enough to be active in the organization. i do not need a companion to persuade me every time to join the gatherings. although i invited cha,i know that if ever she decided not to pursue this endeavor,i would perfectly understand and that i will go on being a loyal member of the ministry.
i know god wants me in this.
he wants to know if i will really hold on to him now that the going gets tough.
but for me...
god is good... all the time!
for quite some time now,i've been having this insatiable desire to strengthen my faith further. one way of doing this, i believe, is by surrounding myself with people who would want the same thing. nothing beats doing an activity with the same goal in mind,and doing it with new people wo can later on be your friends.
this time, i can be mature and independent enough to be active in the organization. i do not need a companion to persuade me every time to join the gatherings. although i invited cha,i know that if ever she decided not to pursue this endeavor,i would perfectly understand and that i will go on being a loyal member of the ministry.
i know god wants me in this.
he wants to know if i will really hold on to him now that the going gets tough.
but for me...
god is good... all the time!
Monday, March 31, 2008
resilience
Mons Tantoco’s Philstar column this Sunday is just so overwhelming. She interviewed foreigners who have been living or have lived in the country and asked what they like most about us Filipinos.
She spoke to ambassadors from Britain, Israel, Pakistan, Mexico, New Zealand and Sweden, and the General Manager of Shangri-La Mactan. They almost come up with a consensus in saying that Filipinos are generally jolly people, hospitable, always come with a ready smile, optimistic and resilient.
Resilient. I like that.
It only goes to show that Filipinos easily adapt to the environment or situation they are in. Most of the time, the Philippines undergoes tough times, economically and politically speaking. It’s a way of life for us. I mean, we never fail to appear in the Top 3 most corrupt government every time they conduct surveys against our neighboring countries. This scares the hell out of foreign investors, thus pulling down our economic ratings. Not only that, kidnappings and other forms of destabilization proliferate in our motherland. Wherever you look, you can see families living below the poverty line. What’s sad is that they continue producing offspring without having means to fend for them, let alone send them to school.
Inspite of it all, we face each and every day with our heads held up high, thanking and praising the good Lord above, and telling ourselves “kaya ko to.” Hey, we don’t have perfect lives, nobody has, but we are still indeed blessed. Favorite pa rin tayo ni God. He blessed us with so much strength for us to continually fight our daily battles.
I just hope we Filipinos don’t just give up on ourselves just yet.
There’s still hope.
Have faith.
And act… FAST
She spoke to ambassadors from Britain, Israel, Pakistan, Mexico, New Zealand and Sweden, and the General Manager of Shangri-La Mactan. They almost come up with a consensus in saying that Filipinos are generally jolly people, hospitable, always come with a ready smile, optimistic and resilient.
Resilient. I like that.
It only goes to show that Filipinos easily adapt to the environment or situation they are in. Most of the time, the Philippines undergoes tough times, economically and politically speaking. It’s a way of life for us. I mean, we never fail to appear in the Top 3 most corrupt government every time they conduct surveys against our neighboring countries. This scares the hell out of foreign investors, thus pulling down our economic ratings. Not only that, kidnappings and other forms of destabilization proliferate in our motherland. Wherever you look, you can see families living below the poverty line. What’s sad is that they continue producing offspring without having means to fend for them, let alone send them to school.
Inspite of it all, we face each and every day with our heads held up high, thanking and praising the good Lord above, and telling ourselves “kaya ko to.” Hey, we don’t have perfect lives, nobody has, but we are still indeed blessed. Favorite pa rin tayo ni God. He blessed us with so much strength for us to continually fight our daily battles.
I just hope we Filipinos don’t just give up on ourselves just yet.
There’s still hope.
Have faith.
And act… FAST
scary
Last night started the campaign for saving mother earth from the uber harmful global warming. It is indeed a big threat to planet earth as we might be wiped out of the map if the glaciers in those cold places (like Antarctica) melt that will eventually lead to the rise in sea level. Needless to say, since we will be experiencing “high tides” on a regular occurrence, the possibility is high that our lands will be submerged in water. This will mean zero habitat, zero life.
So let’s do our share in saving mother earth. Let’s conserve energy, as it is one of the factors that lead to global warming. So less energy consumption, less Meralco bills (kaching!). Also, let’s not use plastic bags and invest instead in eco-friendly shopping bags (thanks to Anya Hindmarch for introducing eco-friendly bags). Screw designer bags, go for canvass statement bags. This means, we do not have to “recycle” (as if we do) these plastics. Even if we do, the plastic materials aren’t really meant for recycling because they aren’t biodegradable. I also think that each one of us should turn green thumb and start planting more trees. Trees absorb the harmful carbon dioxide that depletes our ozone layer (gee, thanks to elementary science).
I hope it’s not too late yet. If everyone could just cooperate and do everything we can to save the world. If we don’t do it NOW, we might not wake up to a beautiful world we now live in.
So let’s do our share in saving mother earth. Let’s conserve energy, as it is one of the factors that lead to global warming. So less energy consumption, less Meralco bills (kaching!). Also, let’s not use plastic bags and invest instead in eco-friendly shopping bags (thanks to Anya Hindmarch for introducing eco-friendly bags). Screw designer bags, go for canvass statement bags. This means, we do not have to “recycle” (as if we do) these plastics. Even if we do, the plastic materials aren’t really meant for recycling because they aren’t biodegradable. I also think that each one of us should turn green thumb and start planting more trees. Trees absorb the harmful carbon dioxide that depletes our ozone layer (gee, thanks to elementary science).
I hope it’s not too late yet. If everyone could just cooperate and do everything we can to save the world. If we don’t do it NOW, we might not wake up to a beautiful world we now live in.
Thursday, March 27, 2008
the present is a gift
we just buried my late uncle yesterday. it's our first "dead" after my lolo died in 1992. it was hard for the santos clan to deal with it. everyone was in denial,everyone was in pain,but everyone saw it coming. that he will eventually lose the battle. he succumbed to septic shock a.k.a multiple organ failure.
i'm one of those who can't bear seeing cadavers,let alone viewing them in a coffin. this one was different. since the dead person is my tito,i was not afraid. i even watched him while his lifeless body was being covered with white cloth. i was even the one who chose the casket he'll lay in. i made sure he lied in a nice viewing box . after all,it was the last time people saw his face. i kept telling him that i hoped he liked his bed. i also couldn't help but look at him everytime i had the chance because it was the first time i saw him that handsome and peaceful.
we battled fatigue and sleepless nights during the wake. but what's worse was the emotion that overpowered us. we kept exchanging tito mon stories -- how everyone treated him, how he remembered everyone's birthday and how he asked everyone for his final request. funny how he asked my cousin to buy him a black belt, my tita for a basketball jersey,another cousin for a watch and my other uncle for a bottle of orange soda. ha! we never realized that was his last.
oh well, everyone has his time. some may pass tragically, some peaceful. so i guess it's true when they say "carpe diem." seize the day. you will never know when it will be your last. that's why it's called the present, because it is indeed a gift.
rest in peace, tito mon. find your way back home. i prayed to god that he welcomes you in his kingdom with open arms.
i'm one of those who can't bear seeing cadavers,let alone viewing them in a coffin. this one was different. since the dead person is my tito,i was not afraid. i even watched him while his lifeless body was being covered with white cloth. i was even the one who chose the casket he'll lay in. i made sure he lied in a nice viewing box . after all,it was the last time people saw his face. i kept telling him that i hoped he liked his bed. i also couldn't help but look at him everytime i had the chance because it was the first time i saw him that handsome and peaceful.
we battled fatigue and sleepless nights during the wake. but what's worse was the emotion that overpowered us. we kept exchanging tito mon stories -- how everyone treated him, how he remembered everyone's birthday and how he asked everyone for his final request. funny how he asked my cousin to buy him a black belt, my tita for a basketball jersey,another cousin for a watch and my other uncle for a bottle of orange soda. ha! we never realized that was his last.
oh well, everyone has his time. some may pass tragically, some peaceful. so i guess it's true when they say "carpe diem." seize the day. you will never know when it will be your last. that's why it's called the present, because it is indeed a gift.
rest in peace, tito mon. find your way back home. i prayed to god that he welcomes you in his kingdom with open arms.
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