God of miracles

Early morning today, I was asked by boyfie if we could have dinner at Binondo. Come lunch time, he cancelled.

I was supposed to meet a client at around 1pm, but had a change of heart. I asked if we can move it at a later time so i can go straight home after the meeting. Client declined.

Come 5:30PM, I struggled not to go straight home yet. My mind was arguing whether to attend a reunion or have my watch strap replaced. I didn't do both. Heck, I'm the only gimik-less girl on a payday Friday.

So fine, I went home.

Traffic was terrible, I told myself, half-asleep.

When I finally reached home, I smelled something like that of incense. I can't stand it when they burn incense during the holy mass. Great, my folks burned some at home!

They told me they had someone visit dad to pray him over and and to "ward off" some negativity in our house. We already got a go signal that we can have him treated again. Long story.

Point is, things won't go perfectly well had i pushed through with any of my plans. So thankful they were aborted altogether! God has a master plan.

Had I pigged out in Binondo, or gone home earlier than usual or met up with old friends, I wouldn't have spoken to Dad.

I've never spoken to my Dad with such depth until today. This time, with emotions, with openness, all heart.

Both were unguarded. Emotions were raw.

All of these happened for us to be closer, for us to be strong for one another and to be more prayerful and to strengthen our faith even more.

The uphills we had to climb -- tough but very well worth it.

Thank you so so much, dear friends, for all your prayers.

God is my ultimate healer.

Today's reflection

Last night's talk at the unit assembly was another affirmation that God indeed is in all of us. It is very imperative, however, to nurture Him in our hearts. How so? Through prayer. It is a two-way relationship between a person and God. When we pray, we shouldn't do the talking all the time. We ought to stop and listen to what He wants to tell us at that exact moment. I guess it takes a lot of courage, patience and focus for me to hear Him out. Admittedly, I have to listen to Him more.

Father Jay stressed the importance of the scriptures in our prayer time. Although I've been using In His Steps on a daily basis, I never really knew how to fully utilize it. I never reflected on it on a deeper level. I would usually browse through it and just go on with the day's work. I would wonder what the reflections are for, when I hardly reflect on the verses myself.

So I would like to start from scratch and do my scripture reading and reflection the right way.

Just like today, the line from Matthew 13:54 that says "...Where did this man get such wisdom and mighty deeds?.." struck me the most.

It was a conscious effort for me to seek, find and make God rule in my life again. I've done numerous mistakes and decisions in my life in the past, but God has always taught me to dust it off and rise above it. It is because of God that I am in this world, staring it in the eye. No matter what and how much life throws at me, I know I come out of wiser, more beautiful and more loving.